Parenting

I always identified with Calvin as a child (I suppose you could say I still do), and this strip pretty much sums up what being a kid like Calvin is like. What I feel like half the time. Wondering about whether parenting is the best option....???

Momma insanity!!

Unit tests over!!! U think it'd make a difference to anyone. Yes it does!!! to me!
Don't know whether i'm walking front or back or in or out??? Is it good night or all the best!!!


Well thats me....
Morning time 7.20AM

R's all ready to leave to school!! urgh....its a SATURDAY FOR CRISSAKE!!!! So....our dear school wants us to write tests on this wonderful sunny morning....and this one day when I want to snuggle under the quilt....tickling the feet of my lil one...mmmm....
trrrrrrrringgggggggg 5.00 AM my alarm goes into a warsong....no way...but physics it is!!!

After all the scramble, an dthe mass, weight, micron, definitions.....I'm ready to leave...oh did I say I??? ooops..it is R who's the one who's leaving, and only to school, and only for a 2 hrs....I quickly find my keys, my cell, my senses...my slippers....adn then say, ok R, good night!!! huh!!! The million dollar look on R's face....my mom's sinking!!! not Blr NIMHANS for her, it should be far away...maybe Pune...maybe Agra ??!!Bangalore could just have another sequence..." ivathu oota naane thandu kodthini...( I shall bring you your lunch today!) I dont want to eat?? but who asks) bendekayi huli no athava, soppina huli na??? do you want bhindi sambhar or greens sambhar?do u want something else? P will be coming to c u!!! shall I send the blue .....no ...NO NO...Not bangalore Nimhans...surely...Agra maybe, yes....( though I'm sure, train ticktes will be available even more easily after i'm admitted in there!!! ) well back to the morning!! now What I had meant to say..just a simple " all the best"!!!!

Now u know what these test do to us mom's. turn us insane..

Ekla chalo re -----let it burn alone!!

"Ekla chalo re.." - Rabindranath Tagore----------------------------------------------------

Jodi Tor Dak Soone Keu Na Asse

Tobe Ekla Chalo re

Ekla Chalo Ekla Chalo Ekla Chalore

Jodi Keu Katha Na Kai Ore Ore O Abhaga

Jodi Sabai Thake Mukh Firae Sabai Kare Bhay

Tabe Paran Khule

O Tui Mukh Fute Tor Maner Katha Ekla Balo re

Jodi Sabai Fire Jai Ore Ore O Abhaga

Jodi Gahan Pathe Jabar Kale Keu Feere Na Chay

Tobe Pather Kanta

O Tui Rakta Makha Charan Tale Ekla Dalo re

Jodi Alo Na Dhare Ore Ore O Abhaga

Jodi Jharr Badale Andhar Rate Duar Deay Ghare

Tobe Bajranale

Apaan Buker Panjar Jaliey Nieye Ekla Jalo re

"Ekla chalo re.." meaning just walk alone...

So here you go with the english translation:

If they answer not to thy call walk alone,

If they are afraid and cower mutely facing the wall,

O thou of evil luck,open thy mind and speak out alone.

If they turn away, and desert you when crossing the wilderness,

O thou of evil luck,trample the thorns under thy tread,

and along the blood-lined track travel alone

If they do not hold up the light when the night is troubled with storm,

O thou of evil luck,

with the thunder flame of pain ignite thy own heart

and let it burn alone.

Reading a magazine, and saw a small article on this beautiful song.

This iconic song, used to be one of Mahatma Gandhi's favourites.

And now I know why.

Such simple expressions, with beautiful meaning.

The day I wrote it!

Don't know what there is, to writing down your innermost thoughts, something which will never be out in the open, ....your mind refuses to think aloud, but when it comes down to words, it just flows, flows like there is a dam which could stop the flow.

I never knew that one day would arrive and bring with it the need to get some connections down on to the space. A connection between emotions, relations ..and most of all, a connection that needs to be tightened.

I've decided, that if you don't get to pour these into ears, its better u pour into the screen, the piece of paper, a medium which will give u the much needed relief. ....and contentment

Now, it shall stay as I wind back to what I loved most,...
Till next time