Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Changing past patterns!!




The clocked ticked on and on. However much she looked it refused to change its mind. It went ahead and tick tocked…

She woke up with a start and looked at the clock yet again…hoping that it was lying. It showed 4.30 AM, and she knew she had to wake up. But there was something not so right. The space beside her stared like a lonely bird out on the tree. She thought she was in a dream…it couldn’t be. He was always back by this time.

She tried her best to trample on her suffocating thoughts, that were drowning her sanity. He had always come in late, but had slowly slipped into the soft, sun dried sheets, and spread his warmth . So today she knew that she should be scared.

She thought back to the times, when she was young….darkness , had haunted her. She had always wanted to hear the voice of an adult- her mother, before she closed her eyes.
She wanted that memory to last. But then she had moved on, in life and in age. Now she was the adult, but her heart still reached out to her childhood wants. She had wanted to say ‘Goodnight!’ before she snuggled under her blankets.

Times changed! Her heart stayed in the same track, but her life went ahead. She was happy when she married, now she needn’t be afraid. There would be a strong arm next to her, keeping her smile on, even after she said her goodnights. Early nights blended into dawns…but her mind still wanted. Her life had changed and so had her strength.

She looked at the blank space next to her, and got out of bed. Her fingers went out and dialed his number.. her sleep laden eyes, didn’t have to see what her hands were doing. She had gone through this action so many times, that it was so natural for her. She dialed yet again, only to hear the constant ringing of the phone. Her mind swirled with generous thoughts. She tried yet again, this time a sleepy voice answered…

“Where are you? Why aren’t you home yet?” she nearly tripped on her tongue.

His answer sent her into a fury, but she chose to be silent, as silent as her home. She hated confrontations.

She started on her chores, tears threatening to fall, but her resolve holding them back. She heard a beep beep, her phone said it had received a message.
She read it through and sighed
“Pea brain, when do you need the car to be sent. The driver will come there by 6.00 AM get the kids ready by then.”

She sighed yet again….how times had changed from her being called “the brain” to being called “pea brain”






In response to Writer's island prompt

20 comments:

Preethi said...

hehe, its kinda cute.. pea brain eh.. :)

Sumana said...

Very interesting take.

Robin said...

Good post! Reminds me of my hubby. He works late, plus plays late at a friends music studio. He has a curfew of 2:00 a.m. He usually makes it, but I've had a couple times of rolling over and reaching for him. It's almost 4:00 and he isn't there. Understand the emotions.

Robin of mytwoblessings

Thinking aloud said...

a little sad too... how times have changed!!! but i guess we will always have a lost child hidden in us...

You've written this well!!!prats...*Her life had changed and so had her strength.*...this spoke volumes...

Anonymous said...

OH my it is verr sad ain't it? I did want to reach out to my hubby just to know he is around! but when yu dnt have him.. what do u do?! damn!

really, does this happen in all the marriages?

vEENs said...

dammitt! where is my comment?!
I commented and it is all gone!

sorry!

The post was really sad.. does this become of all the marriages?

Prats said...

@preethi Just imagine...and what a word isn't it?

@sumana thank you

@robin similar schedules here too I suppose, thank you

@TA yeah...sounds sad ain't it...sometimes it feels so too :(, but such silly words bring us out of doldrums...thanks

@anonymous I guess it does manifest in different ways in most marriages...but if there isn't one...it makes it a lil diff mmm

@veens...blame it on blogger!! Happens once too often...you could say so...

Keshi said...

**“Pea brain, when do you need the car to be sent. The driver will come there by 6.00 AM get the kids ready by then.”


Is this her husband addressing her as 'pea brain'? If so, I cant see why she remains married to such a PEA BRAIN!


Keshi.

Prats said...

@keshi...you got that bingo...yep, that was her husband...and really wonder what makes her stick on....to the pea brain....maybe there are something that really gravitates

Ziah said...

I am at a loss for words... :( Sometimes, the most horrible thing you can do to yourself is wait for someone to come to you.

Some strings bind you, some strings can choke you... Sigh!

--xh-- said...

'pea brain' kind of most whacko name i have ever heard a hubby calling his wifi... :) nice read. time changes, and so do people... from brain to pea brain to what not... kind of a sad undertone, and that amkes this one really intresting...

Rambler said...

I am not sure if I understood this one fully...

I liked the line "Her life had changed and so had her strength" so very true..

Prats said...

@ziah So true and so well said. Loved the lines you've written here...it really fits in here

@xh thanks and yes....life's all about changes ...some are welcome and some are a disturbance.

@rambler. The story out here is how the woman's life changes with marraige and also her needs....and her acceptance to them

anthonynorth said...

Interesting take on marriage. But what did SHE call him, I wonder?

Shruti said...

sigh... men!

rayshma said...

love the narration.. the story comes alive... lovely... :)

rebecca said...

the only thing i don't understand is where he was...he was sleepy...it's late...where is he?

but the emotional feel of the story is truly felt. very sad.

Prats said...

@antonyworth. She was too much at a loss of words having heard the belittling title on her, that she chose to remain silent.

@shruthi lol...oh yes!! one unique kind

@rebecca...thanks
**the only thing i don't understand is where he was...he was sleepy...it's late...where is he? **

He hadn't returned home in the night and that was her worry.

keith hillman said...

I've ben on my own for 5 years now, yet even now I often wake up in the middle of the night , and look at the empty pillow beside me and just for a moment wonder where she is.

Prats said...

@keith Aww *hugs* But I can wholly understand how empty that feeling can be...