Saturday, August 25, 2007

Call from above

Today has been a very hectic day...I've seen death at close quarters....I've seen many so far,people related to me through their relations, people distant from relations, and some people who just touch your heart because they're so beautiful, but today, something shook me up....

Life can be uncertain....nothing we do or say can stop it. It comes with a blissful smile and takes away a precious soul, and in its wake leaves behind so much of unanswered questions, family groping around in the darkness....there's so much of sorrow, not because they are weak, but because they have lost their strength.....they've been so strong all through their lives, and now its leaves a trail of destruction...a rotting scene of tears, of broken dreams, unfulfilled desires....should there be such a life???

Is there any answer to it?

No....there's been no answers in all these years, but there is a need- A need to live a life filled with humanity, love, compassion, respect and so much energy, that u touch everyone's lives and ur legacy of goodness lives on....

When u think of leaving this world and expect people to remember u in some way, it means u have expectations...and expectations brings with it, unfulfilled wishes, which in turn brings sorrow....Don't have any expectations...just live a good life, live an honest life, and live a life of pure unadulterated need to live.

I'd like to move on from today, remember the person with a smile, but life's strange, it brings no smile onto the face....stretching those muscles just brings tears...and so we just carry on...tomorrow I might forget this person, who meant nothing but that he was just a person, who passed me by, and smiled at me....but I lived the tears of his wife, and his children, I saw the need in their eyes...and I pray that I see less and less of this ...and pray that the Lord above gives the family the strength to move on...and smile yet once again....

I went through the day, and was reading when I found an article which made me think...if such people existed, y did the ones affected live on and not let go....I still don't have an answer...I hope i'll get it one day...

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Umpteen Reasons Not To Have Kids!!!!

For those who already have children past this age, this is hilarious.
For those who have children nearing this age, this is a warning.
For those who have not yet had children, this is birth control.

The following came from an anonymous mother in Austin, TX. Things I've learned from my children

A king size waterbed holds enough water to fill a 2,000 sq. foot house 4 inches deep.
If you spray hair spray on dust bunnies and run over them with roller blades, they can ignite.
A 3-year-old's voice is louder than 200 adults in a crowded restaurant.
If you hook a dog leash over a ceiling fan, the motor is not strong enough to rotate a 42 pound boy wearing Batman underwear and a Superman cape. It is strong enough, however, to spread paint on all four walls of a 20X20 foot room.
You should not throw baseballs up when the ceiling fan is on. When using the ceiling fan as a bat, you have to throw the ball up a few times before you get a hit. A ceiling fan can hit a baseball a long way.
The glass in windows (even double pane) doesn't stop a baseball hit by a ceiling fan.
When you hear the toilet flush and the words, "Uh-oh", it's already too late.
Brake fluid mixed with Clorox makes smoke, and lots of it.
A six-year-old can start a fire with a flint rock even though a 36-year-old man says they can only do it in the movies. A magnifying glass can start a fire even on an overcast day.
Certain Lego's will pass through the digestive tract of a four-year-old.
Play Dough and Microwave should never be used in the same sentence.
Super glue is forever.
No matter how much Jell-O you put in a swimming pool, you still can't walk on water.
Pool filters do not like Jell-O.
VCR's do not eject PB&J sandwiches even though TV commercials show they do.
Garbage bags do not make good parachutes.
Marbles in gas tanks make lots of noise when driving.
You probably do not want to know what that odor is.
Always look in the oven before you turn it on. Plastic toys do not like ovens.
The fire department in Austin has a 5 minute response time.
The spin cycle on the washing machine does not make earth worms dizzy. It will, however, make cats dizzy, and cats throw up twice their body weight when dizzy.

And these added courtesy my kids:

When ur 3 year old says eggs after opening the refrigerator door, pay attention, don't ignore!

Lost kitchen stuff can be found inside their toys closet

Calcium sandoz was meant for kids to grow strong...not for the expensive cd player to grow ??

Mudbombs were not just words typed randomly

When explaining something think carefully before you nod ur head...

Whe kids ask for a sieve to play in the sandpit, give it...or else it could be your headphones' ear piece....

Believe me , its not fun to scour through poo, after a child has ingested a coin!!

If your neighbour offers to give ur child something to eat, give works better and less stressful

Roasted , groundnuts inside puliyogare, offered to the LORD, belongs in there, not the nostrils!!

If you want to know how a thick glass can break, ask ur sons to play football with their basketball....

The swingsets in the playarea, co-operates perfectly when the 5 year old swings off into the air- a la Krishh....(broken bones and all)

If u need to know what embarassment is all about, turn the other way when a huge team of school kids and their principal are watching all agape at a 6 year old doing flips and headstands, right in the middle of an empty huge cricket field.

If you want your child to sit quietly in the car, just get out and let them go alone...

If you want to know what Love is all about, try tearing apart 2 siblings in the middle of a fight....

You'll understand your mom better, after your child has told you for the nth time
" I think you're a stepmom"

If you want your child to hug you, just go hug your husband...

The water gun works perfectly just outside the bathroom door...

If your child doesn't know how to climb trees and walls, don't be upset....its better that way...

Their hands are dirtier and its unhealthy for them, when they see a bottle of sanitizer, but not before they eat their meal after playing in the sandpit...

If you want conversation with a child, try putting him to bed!!!!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007


As promised, these are the clues which I had organised as part of the treasure hunt...

The kids and parents had a great time running around trying to find the solutions and places with clues hidden

Clues for the Treasure hunt!!
First clue ;

1.One , two, three, you'll find me where dog's pee if its on the roadside, but if its in our building, kids just give me a sandbath...

2. Your uphill neighbour is mighty talented. The next clue's on her private line!!!

3. The clues together in an envelope. It was a set of cclues, that could be sourced out from the internet, shops, homes, anywhere...prints, materials...etc...

1. At midnight, 60 years ago, an inspired prime minister spoke about a tryst with destiny........

Bring me the first 4 sentences as in the original speech.

2. One often finds the Indian Flag being sold at every street corner. But few of us know that only one place in India makes the flag according to the specification of the Bureau of Indian Standards
a- [ Which place is that? Mark it on a Karnataka Map and show it]
b- Name the organisation that makes it.

3. The size of the National Flag that is flown on the parliament house and the Red Fort . Draw to scale and show.
( It can be scaled down, but give the accurate measurements)

4. A picture of the former mayor of the city.

5. Any circular- could be from your school, office.....

6. Any official letter head.

7. A map of you mentor's state. Point out where the birth town/ city is.

8. A copy of the frontpage of last wednesday's newspaper, main edition

9.. Something in writing that tells you how many people live in the country- july 2007 estimate

10. A picture of any historical landmark in the city that is called " the land of biryani"

11. A program or flyer from a local event.

12. A picture of your school

13. Tickets to any movie or a rock show

14. Cititaxi and Ambulance phone numbers

15. A copy of the local kannada newspaper.

16. The phone numbers of the local police department, which residents of our apartment complex should call in case of emergency

17. Any library card.

18. A shopping bag from any local mall

19. A picture of the national bird
20. When she screams, the whole world can hear,
But only ones who should Turns a deaf ear.
She sings while she cooks
But her husband gives her a dity look

This woman's greatest idol of her time, sat in front rows, whistled while watching his movies
Confirm the woman's name, her idol and get the idol's latest movie's picture

21. The last clue is with the the person whose name rhymes with a welcome greeting...( answer was Sai)
Who is this person's mother's , husbands, mother's ,son's ,father's ,wife's husband. Take the clue from him

. 4- Standing tall in blue, walks up and down
To see that all things inside stays inside and
Nothing from outside goes inside
We're really greatful he's there.

Say ' Thank You' before you take anything from him...

5. He sees that all things function in a perfect routine, order and he's always down under...

6 BOOGIE!!!!!! Solve this cryptogram


1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 0 1 2....... 6 7 ......... 0 - - - 5 6

--- --- --- ---- ---- --- --- --- --- --- ---- ----- ----
1 6 0 4 1 3 2 5 8 1 ( 303 was written in kannada script )


The younger lot in the age group of 2-8 had to collect items with names starting with all the letters of the alphabet....

Monday, August 20, 2007

Positive thinking!!

Something I read that echoes what i've been thinking the last few days:

We should have courage to work on the self is to find the beauty within. Situations come that challenge one's own strength. At such times the mind tends to become weak displaying weaknesses. Then there is no courage to look within. The one who is able to be introspective at that time is able to find a new learning. He is thus able to express the beauty that is lying within. When we understand that at each step of our life, situations come to bring out some quality from within, we'll never be afraid of situations. We'll have the courage to challenge our own assumptions and move forward based on the learning that we get and the beauty that we have been able to discover.

Humility brings excellence. Humility means there is no expectation of being perfect always. So whatever is done comes naturally. There is no feeling of threat about others' opinion, but the one who is humble is able to express inner talent without any fear and expectations. So humility takes one forward towards excellence: When I am humble, I am able to stabilise myself in my state of self-respect always. This naturally is felt even when I am not able to bring perfection in my actions or even when others are not satisfied with me. Internally there is a feeling of satisfaction, knowing that I am constantly learning and moving forward.

The deepest wounds we all carry are locked in our subconscious (out of our awareness). Deep memories and subtle impressions, from unfinished experience, rooted in the past. The pain from those wounds comes to revisit, to block and paralyse us in the moment called now. We all know it comes without warning - "Why am I feeling this way, I didn't mean to do that, I don't know what made me say that." Healing does not mean finding and treating every single inner scar which send it message to haunt us. It means going even deeper, past those wounds, beyond those distant memories and recording of unfinished business, to the core of our self, to the heart of our spirit, where we find the light and warmth of our own core qualities of love and peace. They are eternally present within us they are what we need to heal all our inner wounds.

Sunday, August 19, 2007


Just one of those days!! Nothing seems to be the order of the day!!!

Open my eyes, and what do I see,
Nothing outside but sunshine that creeps:
Where does it hurry,
when I need to worry,
taking care to see that no one tarries!

Open the tap, and there's nothing coming out;
Oops I forgot,there was no water throughout.
What do I do, lines crease my forehead
I have some stored, so there's no need to break my head

There's so much of nothingness,
Empty words, empty feelings,
don't even know what it is that I desire
too much of thinking, better leave it still
I'm not better off sitting still.

Words go around my head,
trying to make sense, with what is said
Will it make things better,
I know it's just a fetter
to sit and wind those broken strings,
let things lie, and seek peace within...

The song
Still haven't found what i'm looking for by U2 playing in the background!!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Mom's and Dad's

This came as a forward sometime ago....I dont know how many women agree with this...but it sure does echo a lot of sentiments of mom's by the end of the day....

Mom and Dad were watching TV when Mom said, "I'm tired, and it's getting late. I think I'll go to bed"

She went to the kitchen to make sandwiches for the next day's lunches.

Rinsed out the popcorn bowls, took meat out of the freezer for supper the following evening, checked the cereal box levels, filled the sugar container, put spoons and bowls on the table and started the coffee pot for brewing the next morning.

She then put some wet clothes in the dryer, put a load of clothes into the washer, ironed a shirt and secured a loose button .
She picked up the game pieces left on the table, put the phone back on the charger and put the telephone book into the drawer.

She watered the plants, emptied a wastebasket and hung up a towel to dry.

She yawned and stretched and headed for the bedroom. She stopped by the desk and wrote a note to the teacher, counted out some cash for the field trip, and pulled a text book out from hiding under the chair.

She signed a birthday card for a friend, addressed and stamped the envelope and wrote a quick note for the grocery store. She put both near her purse.

Mom then washed her face with 3 in 1 cleanser, put on her night solution & age fighting moisturizer, brushed and flossed her teeth and filed her nails.

Dad called out, "I thought you were going to bed." "I'm on my way," she said.

She put some water into the dog's dish and put the cat outside, then made sure the doors were locked and the patio light was on.

She looked in on each of the kids and turned out their bedside lamps and TV's, hung up a shirt, threw some dirty socks into the hamper, and had a brief conversation with the one up still doing homework.

In her own room, she set the alarm; laid out clothing for the next day, straightened up the shoe rack. She added three things to her 6 most important things to do list.

She said her prayers, and visualized the accomplishment of her goals.

About that time, Dad turned off the TV and announced to no one in particular. "I'm going to bed."

And he did...without another thought.

Anything extraordinary here? Wonder why women live longer...?

CAUSE WE ARE MADE FOR THE LONG HAUL..... (and we can't die sooner, we still have things to do!!!!)

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Settling down kids!!!

Ganesh!! AS visualised by my 6 year old...he was in too much of a hurry to get into was done in a few seconds...with lots of comments...
Maybe I can still hope that he'll settle down now from his handstands, and his climbing frenzies...
everyone says, sitting in one place to color and paint can settle a child...maybe they forgot to mention exceptions to rules....
My sons belongs to that set...
even drawing he seems to be in a hurry...go onto the next one....and then start running around....wonder y his head doesnt spin, and only mine does...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Treasure Hunt

OOOf!!!Whoever said being around kids! ( did I say that?? ) was fun! Was absolutely right!

Today being a special day, I managed to organise a treasure hunt for the residents of our apartment complex.

We had such a great time.....the fun in seeing the clues being cracked, kids running up and down the place, elders trying to was fun!!! pure absolute excitement.

The little kids in the age group of 2-7 were given a set of easy clues...
they had to collect objects whose names started with the letters of the alphabet...and all within half an hour..
their was of handling non existent solutions were amazing...I had one team who came up with Q - queen, u'd think its so perfect...but...but....there's this lil girl all of 7, wearing a crown on her head and standing in front of me" I am the Queen " Can I contradict that??? I crossed my fingers that the other team had a better solution, and they didnt ..the lil feet scampering around, with so much of feverish excitement...little hands holding on to a bag....filled with objects..." I'd do this day in and day out, only to watch that burst of sunshine in their faces, when they find the right object...

The older ones had senior citizens in the teams too...and what support they were giving....they couldnt run up and down steps, but they helped crack the clues, and egged on their team members...tough clues some of them ( I actually stayed up the whole morning....and afternoon, preparing the clues...) and I'm so glad was tough, the men were complaining that I was responsible for their scalps being were cribbing that I was too tough on them, but in the end they solved each and every clue, and brought back their treasure....

Looking back, I realise, thi is what that gives me contentment....seeing those glowing faces....those sad frowns, the bickering when 2 teams clash...and finally the fact that aunty's son , didn't know any of the places that the clue was hidden....oh poor R,..
I achieved it....I made all of them smile...
I will try and put up the clues that i had organised...maybe I can improve on it next time..


Bharat Mata ki Jai

At 60, we are retired and probable our children celebrate our shashtipoorthi shanthi! Look at this amazing lady! She is full of vigour and rearing to go!She smashes with Sania, dazzles with Ash. Buys and takes over with Tata and Mittal tops the world with Taj Mahal, Yet she has a lot of potential untapped. Come lets fuel her enthu, propel her to the future numero-uno spot! Thats where she should rightly be.
Bharat Mata Ki Jai!

Just got his SMS ...and so well said
thought i'd quickly write this down here...for others to see...

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Independence - 60 years

Happy Independence day!!

Its been celebration time for the residents of our complex, just like much of activity and so much of fatigue...but this year, we decided to have the cultural celebrations a little later, cos they were adding glamour to those very weary walls of the clubhouse...

So I decided not to let the kids hopes down, and am trying to organise a treasure hunt for all the kids,.....

Its been tough, getting hold of hints and clues, ...the age ranges from 3 to 18....I need to be careful..

Or else I'll get the lil ones coming up and telling me" aunty its not fair, R and A will know all the solutions to the clues.." Now how do I go about keeping this from them...

I had to work, late, after they went to bed...

Now its back to putting up good and interesting clues ...

any ideas??!!!

Wish me luck, that I'm fair...but that I don't disappoint my kids too....its tough but i've done it before so this time i'll be able to I know...

ciao...and happy time tomorrow..

Lets celebrate

Animations to help the world

Reading is my hobby!!! But I don't have to push myself...sometimes I read the damn dictionary...but today I was going thru some very good articles on the net...
There were animations related to medical stuff...and I really found it interesting and scary too...

Whoever suffers from these, I really wish they have enough strength to bear whatever they go thru...Its scary when there is no prgnosis on any suffering, but at least ...there are loved ones around to make it easier to face...

The animations are real cool..

Monday, August 13, 2007


Went into a sudden drive of reading books, ....lots of them
Sometimes, I can be reading 3 at a time, and this was one of those days..

Books I have been reading , or read:
1. My Name is Red- Orhan Pamuk -A thrilling murder mystery, very artistically written. ( still reading)

2. Salem Falls- Jodi Picoult - A compelling and disturbing novel about small town intrigues (Finished reading)

3 Namesake - Jhumpa Lahiri - Loved the way it was written, and more so because of the way the story is simple and straight

4 . The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini - Powerful and inspiring....but beautifully crafted...( Finished reading)

5. Faking it- Jennifer Crusie - Bright Funny sexy and wise....these are the reviews....i'll need to for my own opinion after I finish reading it..

6. The Last Moghal - William Dalrymple - going slow, but very interesting reasearch done for it...

Of course in between I also re-read, Meditation: The Art of Ecstacy by Osho, The Power of Now, Vedic Math, Lion king, Harry Potter's last and final book


Living thru your childs eyes....its not so easy!! Just when u assume ( its always been assumptions, somehow, those very sure minds of us parents never seem to know things for sure!! when it comes to our very own brood...) they are coming along well...u r dragged into another tunnel , a seemingly endless one of hurt and despair.
Whoever said its easy to understand them...need to re run their lives...

Kids!! Such a small word, just 4 letters, but they bring with them endless challenges. Ever tried convincing ur child that no matter what they do, he still still is the apple of your eye?? try it....they dont want to be the apple, they wanted the apple themselves...Try explaining that failing to win a race is nothing, they could always do better next time....they want to have not won it but at least won it!!! Its not easy to c ur little one suffering hurt...its easier to bandage those wounds, that require antiseptic, and bandages...its easier to re wrap all their books, but its not easy to wipe away that misery he goes thru, just because he lost a small piece of paper in which he wrote something...

One day he's literally avoiding his friends like plague, just because they bullied him, but when u tell them to ignore those very friends, he feels sorry for them....he feels sorry, that one of his friends does not have the same kind of atmosphere in his home, ...." ma, so sad, he's always alone at home..." How do u put ur arms around this child, when all he knows are how not to hurt u, if he knows ur lonely, .....??

The whole time the kids are around,
all I can think of is to run away to get some peace...
but the minute I send them somewhere to leave me in peace,
i'm in pieces....
But at the end of the day, I'm sure glad, that this great one above, deemed me fit, to be the mother of these 2 wonderful kids...and I really hope I fit in well in their scheme of thing.!!

Sunday, August 12, 2007


Oh !! To feel the luxury of not having to worry about routines, schedules, deadlines, kitchen.....

Would always believe that this could be found only in dreams....Been so caught up in hectic hustle bustle of, school, home, was getting smudged in the detailing.....each one blending into the other, that, only this small piece of heaven could bring me back to reality...

That life is meant to be lived!!

While I was younger and had the liberty to shirk, duties at home....I had this huge sticker stuck on my walls, which said " Life's a Beach!!"

Each day I used to have different interpretations to it...
One day it would be its expanse, on another, its mystery, its serenity, its wildness, its sounds...and in the end, its just being!!. I remember there were these friends of mine who would come up and scribble their bits on my posters, on every bit of writing material they could find ...

There used to be small comments or their very own quotes....some were so cute...thought I would always hold on to them...but

Years passed, those small pieces of paper, were all saved, read and re-read, millions of times....all my friends had set out on their journeys, just as I had house had taken a ghostly feel...( this is where they all congregated to take their calls from home, to have their lunches, to just come home, after a movie...or better still to eat the 'gojju', that used to be prepared just in case they did land up....and then my parents would keep calling me by my friends names....cos they were all muddled up...they too were part of my entire being, staying up nights, standing on reams of sheets of paper, acting as paper weights, supplying endless amounts of tea, food, snacks, and lots and lots of love and encouragement....

I used to have many sets of parents....2 sets at home...Appa and Amma, my uncle and aunt,
then M's parents who believed I was one of their daughters too....and I remember uncle used to always tell the whole world..." U need any info, just ask P, she'll know.....she's a dynamite..." A's parents who each time they visited our city, decided that their daughter was set up in our house, so they just needed to pour all their love for me too...I was so blessed...but then this dynamite had slowly fizzled out...had become flat...

There was a transit house ...we called it that cos, we always used it like that, but never thought of it like that...but this ,a beautiful home, was filled with so much of love, outstretched arms....lots of food.....the food platter never would know who would be the recipient, but stand it did, quietly, till late nights ....knowing full well, that there would be at least one taker. Uncle had the biggest heart life could create...They had 2 sons and a daughter, and lots more who used to follow their sons into their house....and he spread his wings to 2 more girls, their daughters in law....and none of us were made to believe that we were not theirs....he's not with us anymore, but each time I remember love, he's my example for it...they still spread their arms....thru their sons, daughters in law, grandchildren, nieces....and uncles and sisters, and all.......

And then there was this huge family of friends....each one who stood for each other....we still do, I realised that yesterday...we still land up in the other homes and demand food...shame notwithstanding...but in the end, we still r the same teenagers....wanting the same things out of life.....and they still pull us up when we r slipping, give us those strong hands, give us their endless 'I'm there for u's'

Was reading thru some really immature scribblings we had written during those days...not realising that we would be reading it together after many many years....we all had dreams, we all had goals, and we all had the will to do it...but when I read them , I realised, I havent lost out on any of those still exists, its just waiting for me to finish with all my previous goals that I had set....i've done most of them....and I am proud of what I have done so far...and one of my dreams was to be around kids , lots of and lots of them....and when I was with them, I wanted to have the feeling of love for each and every one, equally...I achieved it....they all are just like my own...and now I realise it was a silent dream while we used to spend time at this friends house...I wanted my arms and home to be always welcome to everyone...its a slow process....but i'm getting there...

And now i've begun to step out on my journey to achieve what my most important goal was, my dream........until then its hoping that my determination is as powerful and strong as my DREAMS are........

Hugs with the hopes to set things right!

What A Hug Can Do~????

A hug is a wonderful gift to share, A way to show each other that we care; There is so much a hug is able to do, When you feel those arms holding you.

A hug is a place to feel safe and warm,A comfort for a sad heart that is torn; An expression of the love in our heart, For ones who we wish, never to be apart.

A hug is a greeting when we meet to say hello, Or to say goodbye when we have to go; It can hold us up when life gets us down, And makes us smile, instead of frown.

A hug can be given for no reason at all, And given to those, both big and small; We're never too old to feel the joy it brings, As it is one of life's most pleasing things.

And for all of this beauty, a hug is free! It costs nothing, yet means so much to me;
We should all hug another to show we care,
For to feel a warm hug, nothing can compare.

Here's Your Virtual Hug from Me to YOU

For no reason at all .....just that you might need one.
Listening to Morning has broken by cat stevens

Saturday, August 11, 2007

A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson

Oprah: This book helped me realize that there are only two emotions, love and fear. In every relationship, you're always moving toward one or the other.

Favorite quote: "In every moment, we teach either love or fear. As we demonstrate love towards others…we learn how to love more deeply."
when we think:
The greatest mistake is in believing that we are 'only human… ' We are human in expression but divine in creation and limitless in potentiality."


Mind is the most complicated organ, I guess!! It has to be occupied all the time, if not it goes into a mode of calculative analysis. It what it was made for...
But then these thought can always be recursive if not controlled.

Thoughts can be of 2 categories,
Good : Is what we think is good to our eyes.
Evil : What we think is not right for us.

But in between all this, there is another option, don't think at all...evil or not, it is a thought...let it be!! good or not let it be!!

Y waste your precious moments of life with others, dwelling on things that cannot be changed. Just let it be!!

Don't start giving it a label...don't start negating everything, ....

Just let the sunshine fill the day, the clouds that darken , will peep out eventually lined with silver one day....and that silver is far brighter than the sunshine that preceded it....



Mirrors reflect only what you want to see. If you look carefully, it shows u hundreds of images, one within the other...

Thats our life, there is goodness, each within itself. ...
No man sets out to destroy another, its the situation he creates or that is created by outside elements, that brings him to such situations.

There is always goodness in almost everyone. Even the most feared convicts have them , and it shows when they face their loved does every person in this just needs a little push to bring it out.

When in error don't doubt yourself, just be glad that worse things didn't happen, and it was for the good that whatever happened did happen.

I've always believed in the beauty of is the only relationship that can stand weathering, thru thick and thin, thru good times and bad times....just becos there is a speedbreaker, it doesn't mean u cannot go over it!!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Prayer is meditation


It is like meditation. For me at least. U don't need to go to the temple or sit in front of an image of God or even recite shlokas from books...for me prayer is sincere thanksgiving to the Lord, and a dialogue between Him and me.

Years i've lived, with the thought of Him watching over me, or else how do I explain, my life here!! He's there and I thank him for that. And in times of distress I talk to him...if he thinks I can take it, he'll put me thru whatever situation, and he'll also give me the strength to go thru it...But i'll not stop praying...

My prayers go out to all those around me, cos if others don't find the way to pray, I shall....I can pray anytime or any place....

Today I pray that He gives strength to everyone especially those who can't , who need the strength, those who need to hold His hand, those who need to talk to Him...I'll pray that He stays with them...and gets them thru all their fears and troubled times

Tuesday, August 7, 2007


My state of mind now!!
Listening to Allah ke Bandhe by kailash kher


Magdalene Chan - "Forgiveness"

“Forgiveness is the answer to the child's dream of a miracle by which what is broken is made whole again, what is soiled is again made clean.” Dag Hammarskjöld


In Buddhism, forgiveness is seen as a practice to prevent harmful emotions from causing havoc on one’s mental well-being.[3] Buddhism recognizes that feelings of hatred and ill-will leave a lasting effect on our mind karma and instead encourages the cultivation of emotions which leave a wholesome effect.

Divine powers need to intervene, Cos I am a very religious person. For me religion means : my friends ( whether they r good or bad, they r my friends.I chose to make them mine, not the other way round )

Forgiveness is a virtue of the weak, and an ornament of the strong.

My parents - Their lives revolve around their children...I am one of them...I promised them that I wouldn't do anything in my realm to hurt them, and keep up this promise, I will, till my last breath...

My children : They r like my eyes, can't live without either of them. And I sincerely wish that I live upto their expectations, cos they know the world first from my eyes...and I will keep my eyes on them.

My dreams : They are unfulfilled, but my life isn't over as yet. I have a long way to go, before I say I can't anymore..becos, I dont know that word. "can't" I wasn't taught that well....

A few years ago, a very special person in my life told me, that even if it means you are inconvenienced, see that you bring happiness in others around u.I've tried my best so far...I was stepped on, walked over, taunted, emotionally harassed, everything, that another person maybe would have thought of ending it, ending his life....I didn't, just because I believed that God gave challenges only to those He believed had the strength to face them. And I believe i'm one of them, And I wont give up. This special person is "my father" who i'll cherish and wish I would be like him always...

A very good friend, is someone who will reach out, not only to those in trouble but also to pat one on the back, to admonish one if they r wrong...and to stay away when they know, they should...

Friends cannot be forgotten, How can they? They were a part of this cycle of life...and if they forget, then the cycle is broken...but at times its needed for us to move away, move on, for ourselves and for the other too.

Forgiveness is a great gift. Even God forgives everyone, then who r we to go against that scheme of things. Are we greater than God!!! I dont think i've reached that stage as yet...And i'll continue to it my friends, be it my family, be it my children or my own self....I'll forgive and still not forget...i'll forget the circumstances, but not the person, the situation, but not the hands that reached out, the harsh words spoken, but not the hurt I put them thru, the smile I bring on others, but not the smile I erase...But at the end of it all I'll ask God to forgive me...for being part of this ugly phase of hurt and betrayal, and to help me to move on..and pray that the situation will move onto higher goals in life...

Pray that God takes care, and gives everyone the strength to face life as it comes, live every moment for the people who depend on us, for every smile, for every step, for every blink of the eye...

Listening to Tanhaiyee, from Dil Chahta Hai

Opinionated elements!!!

Blogging can be a real release of emotions for some. I was made aware of a few issues though. Some people take it upon themselves to display their opinions about each and every issue around them, whether they are asked for it or not, whether it is right or not??
What is it with people who assume that what they feel is the only way that everyone around them should feel?

Y is it that they think that their opinions are the best and most appropriate.

Such elements should remember that not everyone would like their space to be usurped by stingy thoughts, narrowed emotions, and more so opinionated views.

Emotions can get very strong, but its always better to maintain a balanced outlook...What I think is what I I want u to start ur rantings on my!!!!

I do not hold any hard feelings about anyone, whether I was wronged or not...
So y is it that i'm being subjected to such treatment...If I said let go, I meant "let go" No one can come in between my sentiments and oppose it....thats treading on anothers territory...

I can't forget, but I forgive.....

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Looks like i'm into keyboarding my thoughts a lil too often today...but couldnt help put this up, for future use...

Read it elsewhere...

A small truth to make our Life 100% successful..........
If A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

Then H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%


L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47%

(None of them makes 100%)
Then what makes 100%
Is it Money? ..... No!!!!!
Leadership? ...... NO!!!!

Every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps change our "ATTITUDE".
It is OUR ATTITUDE towards Life and Work that makes
OUR Life 100% Successful..

A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

For more attitude and hardwork....enjoy

How true can that be!!!

Meditation- and fasting

Osho...the name itself conjures so many reviews, so many opinions, so many emotions!!!
It did that to me too...For me as a child ,Osho was all about controversies, none of which I had proofs of...absolutely no idea if he even existed, cos our travle and geographical ventures ended with our good old city...what happened outside didn't register in our lil minds! Thank God!! it didn't register....for then I would have been so ignorant, and very biased...A chance reading, a book picked up by me, while I didn't have all those mushy novels of mine...a great influence from of my friend...thank god!! I did read it that day..I realised there is a whole new meaning to every word that is said...its upto u to form your opinions on them, but there is no way I can tell what they r like to read....

This is an excerpt from one of his books...
"Consistency in inconsistencies- That is why I talk about fasting. It is an action, a very deep action. Taking food is not so great an activity as not taking it. You take it, and then you forget about it; it is not much of an activity. But if you are not taking food, it is a big act; you cannot forget it it. The whole body remembers it; each single cell demands it. The whole body gets in a turmoil. It is very active - active to the very core. It is not passive. "

No one can know about this action better than I...I think even the old man at home knew about this action....cos he very strictly, told another, not to let this lil person fast.....if u do ur in trouble...heheh....its a very mild word...

I could stay without food....without realising it....the whole day....working on sleep, no food....( though the tea would just keep filling all the spaces ) but the minute some thing was said about fasting!!! God help me!! My insides would be in turmoil....such pangs that one would never understand...hunger is so potent...only a hungry person'll know ...
and for the betterment of the One above....don't expect me to fast....I'll forget Him and just meditate on just FOOD....