Saturday, December 13, 2008

I don't know what!!

Has there been a time in your life when you feel lost...not the lost in thoughts...but just LOST. You don't know what you feel or don't know what you want? All you know is that you're feeling
"I don't know what".
Sometimes I feel i'm missing something or someone, but can never pin it down. At times like these, I just pick up the phone and call a friend..it works all the time...trust me.
When i'm in a mood that can be dangerous for friends....I just call my sister...she's my sounding board...solid one at that...( though she's a year younger) But when you can actually complain and criticize the same people and have a similar opinion..or just find faults with some system...it feels cathartic. I don't come away from the call , with any kind of surefire solution..but the few laughs, the small whines and the endless " non worries" helps.

Still there are times, when I find myself listening to soothing chants of music. I'm not fussy....I'd love to listen to any kind. It could be very repetitive recitals of or chants of shlokas....it could be the lilting tunes of instruments...( The ones that say they remind you of winds, mountains, rivers...) sometimes just the lovely , lively and amazing carols can just lift the spirits....after all "HO HO HO" is not gurgled out for nothing...

Sometimes, there is a that most healing hug from a friend- a hug that is not romantic or comforting, but can put you and the friend into an amazing state of ease.....feeling way better?!!
Right now amidst exam chaos, and endless mommy duties and some no use duties too and even wondering where those last 12 months went whizzing past...I find myself yearning to get back to those days when, school christmas time was all about partying, singing carols, practising for school plays and then giving gifts...it was fun..
it was therapeutic and all the more it was pure unadulterated magic of just BEING.
Next week, my kids start Christmas vacation and this time the sound of a holiday with nowhere to go, but just sitting at home chilling out....sounds lovely relaxing and plain stressfree..( crossing fingers behind the back)I'm going to just do that...do nothing that has to be planned...

And when I did hear this..my " don't know what mood" did actually soar..listen
slow but just awesome to lift those dead feet

The Banana Boat Song - Harry Belafonte

18 comments:

brocasarea said...

i was bit low 2 days back...called my best pal..felt better..:)....

have a good Christmas vacation

Sujatha said...

Just read Uma's post about her "Not to do list" and then I read this!

Last week I was thinking of all the crazy stuff we used to do back when... The contests, the youth club or whatever we had... Sometimes I wonder at all the energy we had.

Hope you get some good chillin' time. :)

rayshma said...

rest well... that's what holidays are for! :)
and heyy.. i love the song :)

Joy said...

Prats I lose myself more often that I want to but I do hope of finding myself :)

Anyways, when feeling lost, write - others bloggers will find you. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

Veens said...

wow! thats a neat new look and me loves it :)

i m sorry have not been here much.. i feel lost too.. lost as in - u knw what i mean --

no talking to any one doesn't help :(

but then..reading this makes me smile nevertheless.. i ve felt like this :) too :)

chillax in Winter hols and hav fun :)

i remember Christmas too.. with sicrit Santas.. and gifts and Carols and loads of fun :)

Prats said...

@broca Friends do bring out some good times in us....hope you have a great Christmas too

@sujatha :) Those were good times, and no responsibilty times...all we had to think of was if our efforts were being paid off in the end by an icecream :)
I've promised myself time for myself...and I wish to go through with that...
thank you

Prats said...

@rayshma That song has a sleepy lilt to it , doesn't it...and you enjoy the hols too...you're back with hubs by then aren't u?

Prats said...

@joy...you know what your name itself spells so much of cheer....write I will...i'd be lost or else...
Merry Christmas to you too...

Prats said...

@veens. Awwwww Veens..pre-wedding jitters catching up i'm sure...
hugs to you...
Everything will be fine...and have a great time...its your time after all.
All the best and take care , girl!!!
We love you

suma said...

Its called the "need to chill, mommy" mood.

its great therapy to catch hold of someoen and just talk without expecting censure, or even action...

and of course we are just a *ping* away :D

love that song too....

ps...if you are in a lost mood, i'm in a currently nonsensical mood...

Sumana said...

Hey prats a virtual hug. I am sure it is comforting to do something off the routine andjust relax. Yes christmas was so much fun at school with taking part in carol singing getting cakes and candies and not to forget the holidays.

Joy said...

Suma: You are in "nonsensical" mood? When are you in sensible mood ? :) Grin ** GRIN** :D... Okay let me go and hide before you seek and spank me :D

Preethi said...

I have the same days too.. reallylow days when I dont know what it is about.. butlike Rayshma says . the holidays are here.. rest and regroup :) hugs girl

ceedy said...

I guess I am perpetually in this state - LOST...

I travel or drive long....thats a good therapy for me....

Hope all is well...

ceedy said...

And Happy Holidays too

Ziah said...

:-)

Picture this: Curled up in the couch catching a funny movie/mushy one with a steaming cuppa coffee or chai and pakoda or even maggi... its almost as good as best friend therapy:) I tell you, banish the kids to the folks or the in-laws every now and then:)

Guruprasad said...

i have a sure-fire idea of a completely stress-free holiday... make sure the kids have a lot of activities during the afternoons every day... that's when you should chill out, read a book, listen to some music, take a nap, ask hubby to give you a good head massage (on his day off... or ask him to take a day off! :P ), whatever!

b said...

I love the new look of the blog.

Is feeling lost like being a little hungry but not being able to figure out what you want? I for one feel a little panic but reading will fill the empty time until the lost goes away.

Be well.

b