Has there been a time in your life when you feel lost...not the lost in thoughts...but just LOST. You don't know what you feel or don't know what you want? All you know is that you're feeling
"I don't know what".
Sometimes I feel i'm missing something or someone, but can never pin it down. At times like these, I just pick up the phone and call a friend..it works all the time...trust me.
When i'm in a mood that can be dangerous for friends....I just call my sister...she's my sounding board...solid one at that...( though she's a year younger) But when you can actually complain and criticize the same people and have a similar opinion..or just find faults with some system...it feels cathartic. I don't come away from the call , with any kind of surefire solution..but the few laughs, the small whines and the endless " non worries" helps.
Still there are times, when I find myself listening to soothing chants of music. I'm not fussy....I'd love to listen to any kind. It could be very repetitive recitals of or chants of shlokas....it could be the lilting tunes of instruments...( The ones that say they remind you of winds, mountains, rivers...) sometimes just the lovely , lively and amazing carols can just lift the spirits....after all "HO HO HO" is not gurgled out for nothing...
Sometimes, there is a that most healing hug from a friend- a hug that is not romantic or comforting, but can put you and the friend into an amazing state of ease.....feeling way better?!!
Right now amidst exam chaos, and endless mommy duties and some no use duties too and even wondering where those last 12 months went whizzing past...I find myself yearning to get back to those days when, school christmas time was all about partying, singing carols, practising for school plays and then giving gifts...it was fun..
it was therapeutic and all the more it was pure unadulterated magic of just BEING.
Next week, my kids start Christmas vacation and this time the sound of a holiday with nowhere to go, but just sitting at home chilling out....sounds lovely relaxing and plain stressfree..( crossing fingers behind the back)I'm going to just do that...do nothing that has to be planned...
And when I did hear this..my " don't know what mood" did actually soar..listen
slow but just awesome to lift those dead feet
The Banana Boat Song - Harry Belafonte