Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Dreams!

This is in response to the latest prompt "Dreams" at Writer's Island. I had posted one earlier, so thought i'd just re-post it here...

Dreams!!!!
Oh !! To feel the luxury of not having to worry about routines, schedules, deadlines, kitchen.....

Would always believe that this could be found only in dreams....Been so caught up in hectic hustle bustle of life....kids, school, home, family.....it was getting smudged in the detailing.....each one blending into the other, that, only this small piece of heaven could bring me back to reality...

That life is meant to be lived!!

While I was younger and had the liberty to shirk, duties at home....I had this huge sticker stuck on my walls, which said " Life's a Beach!!"

Each day I used to have different interpretations to it...
One day it would be its expanse, on another, its mystery, its serenity, its wildness, its sounds...and in the end, its just being!!. I remember there were these friends of mine who would come up and scribble their bits on my posters, on every bit of writing material they could find ...

There used to be small comments or their very own quotes....some were so cute...thought I would always hold on to them...but

Years passed, those small pieces of paper, were all saved, read and re-read, millions of times....all my friends had set out on their journeys, just as I had done...my house had taken a ghostly feel...( this is where they all congregated to take their calls from home, to have their lunches, to just come home, after a movie...or better still to eat the 'gojju', that used to be prepared just in case they did land up....and then my parents would keep calling me by my friends names....cos they were all muddled up...they too were part of my entire being, staying up nights, standing on reams of sheets of paper, acting as paper weights, supplying endless amounts of tea, food, snacks, and lots and lots of love and encouragement....

I used to have many sets of parents....2 sets at home...Appa and Amma, my uncle and aunt,
then M's parents who believed I was one of their daughters too....and I remember uncle used to always tell the whole world..." U need any info, just ask P, she'll know.....she's a dynamite..." A's parents who each time they visited our city, decided that their daughter was set up in our house, so they just needed to pour all their love for me too...I was so blessed...but then this dynamite had slowly fizzled out...had become flat...

There was a transit house ...we called it that cos, we always used it like that, but never thought of it like that...spent more time than at our own homes,but this ,a beautiful home, was filled with so much of love, outstretched arms....lots of food.....the food platter never would know who would be the recipient, but stand it did, quietly, till late nights ....knowing full well, that there would be at least one taker. Uncle had the biggest heart life could create...They had 2 sons and a daughter, and lots more who used to follow their sons into their house....and he spread his wings to 2 more girls, their daughters in law....and none of us were made to believe that we were not theirs....he's not with us anymore, but each time I remember love, he's my example for it...they still spread their arms....thru their sons, daughters in law, grandchildren, nieces....and uncles and sisters, and all.......

And then there was this huge family of friends....each one who stood for each other....we still do, I realised that yesterday...we still land up in the other homes and demand food...shame notwithstanding...but in the end, we still r the same teenagers....wanting the same things out of life.....and they still pull us up when we r slipping, give us those strong hands, give us their endless 'I'm there for u's'

Was reading thru some really immature scribblings we had written during those days...not realising that we would be reading it together after many many years....we all had dreams, we all had goals, and we all had the will to do it...but when I read them , I realised, I havent lost out on any of those dreams....it still exists, its just waiting for me to finish with all my previous goals that I had set....i've done most of them....and I am proud of what I have done so far...and one of my dreams was to be around kids , lots of and lots of them....and when I was with them, I wanted to have the feeling of love for each and every one, equally...I achieved it....they all are just like my own...and now I realise it was a silent dream while we used to spend time at this friends house...I wanted my arms and home to be always welcome to everyone...its a slow process....but i'm getting there...

And now i've begun to step out on my journey to achieve what my most important goal was, my dream........until then its hoping that my determination is as powerful and strong as my DREAMS are........

This song, was one of my favourites , and I wanted you'll to listen to it too

18 comments:

Thinking aloud said...

awww...you've been blessed in so many ways...here's wishing you the realisation of every dream of yours...like you said...it still exists...so get going girl!

i know...i know...it is difficult but i have to cheer you up...

the song...it's one of my favorites too...

Tys on Ice said...

dream on girl...its the best part of our life...

looks like u hve achieved almost everything tht u hve dreamed of, albiet in different ways...but achieved nevertheless....

Prats said...

@TA Oh yes...i'm really blessed...And I really have this goodwill from all you friends....thank you

@Tys Mmmm....seems like i'm living the best part now....you said it so well, I sure have achieved most of my dreams...and in lots of fulfilling ways...
When's ur candles going to burn one extra ....24th is it??

gautami tripathy said...

Do dreams ever end? If they did, we won't exist.

Prats said...

@gautami Oh no, they don't..You said it right, we wouldn't exist at all, not having the dream of our life..

UL said...

That was really superb, the message 'believe in your dreams' came through clearly, you have such positive attitude toward life, your post brought a joy to my heart, to relive memories via dreams is a fine thing and it keeps one going into the future. Thank you.

paisley said...

i was carried away in your descriptions of the extended familial relationships... more and more of us americans cannot even maintain a relationship with one set of parents and or siblings... i am awed.. how on earth do you do it????

Prats said...

@UL You said it so right **to relive memories via dreams is a fine thing and it keeps one going into the future**
I guess in this harried life, we need to look on the brighter side to keep us going :)

@paisley Thank you so much...I'm sure the culture there has not permitted all of you to follow such patterns in relationships, or else i'm sure all of us are made out of the same texture.
The need to be loved and having people around you gives me so much of joy, I can't think of my life otherwise...

Lea said...

I read your post last night before going to sleep and the music was one of the last things I heard... an oldie from another time, yet like you write here, they are the dreams of long ago that become real... lovely and thank you!

jadey said...

Heres to hoping all your dreams come true.

tumblewords said...

Dreams and promises intermingle. Nice writing!

Mary Timme said...

Dreams and promises are what came through for me also. I often intermingle the two, as well.

keith hillman said...

I got so carried away listening to Don and Phil that I forgot what I'd read and had to go back again!

I loved this. A great attitude!

Prats said...

@lea The dreams of long ago is what gets fulfilled...and the song oh so depicts my memories. Thank you

@jadey Thank you

@tumblewords and mary timme Its the intermingling of both that gives it another dimension to realising it I suppose. Thank you

@keith I'm sure Don and Phil must be so pleased they did this song....keep humming the tune, and then I realise, i'm alone and its at the back of my head....my dreams and my song. The attitude is what makes me tick...Thank you

Ziah said...

***...but then this dynamite had slowly fizzled out...had become flat...***

Hey hot momma!! You're still one of the best dynamite's I've known...:) You're the type that is out there kickin some bad ass... keep goin gal!:)

oormila vijayakrishnan said...

Nice...It is so easy to get carried away and feel overwhelmed by the enormity of life.How many of us actually pause to think about our blessings and be thankful? If we all did, just like you have in this post, we would realize that our lives are really so rich!
And whoever said it is not possible to follow your dreams if you participated in the mundane routine of life? It is all about skillful parallel processing isn't it? And nature has endowed us women generously in that department!
Follow your dream, Prats! :-)

Prats said...

@ziah Thanks for making me the hot momma!! Kicking ass right now..on the way to achieving goals....thank you thank you

@oormila **we would realize that our lives are really so rich!
You've said it right....its only when we look back at all the good things that have come out of our lives, we realise we've been blessed! So up towards parallel processing, here I go!!

Raghu said...

dream on!
way to go girl!